A Letter for Daddy

Dear Daddy,

How are you? Its been a while since I asked you that even if I very well know you are happy and doing good. 

I just wanted to catch up with you and let you know how much I miss you. A few hours ago, while I was making dinner, an image of you flashed through my mind. It was that time when you asked me to accompany you to the recruitment agency. You remember that, Daddy? You said you were ready to take on an overseas assignment so that you could secure our future. I patiently waited for you to be done with speaking with the recruiter. I silently wished your application would get disapproved. I'm sorry, Daddy. I just was not sold on the idea of growing up with you being miles away.

Eventually, things did not turn out the way you wanted. It turned out better. You and Mama started a business which took off like crazy! There was no need for you to leave. But it was me who left. I abandoned the dreams you had for me. The main reason you wanted that overseas job was to save enough money to send me to medical school. 

I ask for your forgiveness, Daddy. I did not turn out to be the doctor that you have wanted me to be. I know how devastated you and mama were when I quit during my junior year. I am so sorry.

Life has been hard, it has been a continuous struggle for me to make ends meet. I am still working so hard to make you proud of me. Your grandchildren are all grown. I raised them all by myself. At this point, I would like to thank you for teaching me to have faith in God, that every thing will be okay if I just sit still and pray. Do you know Daddy that I look up to you every time I come face to face with adversity? You were my pillar of strength. You still are.

My parents

Daddy, lately I have took up writing. Remember the time when I asked permission from you if I could enroll in Journalism? You said that writers do not have a future, and that you worried that I would end up to be a contributor for a comic strip. It was my passion, Daddy. I am now living that dream. I ask you to understand. I promise that this time, I won't let you down. You're going to be proud of your little girl. 

I will be visiting soon. I'm sorry I haven't been there in such a long, long time. But that doesn't mean I have forgotten you. How can I do that when part of me is you? I would have never walked this earth if it were not because of you. We may no longer talk, but I know words are not important now. It is through the heart that we communicate. I wish I could still feel your touch, hear your laughter, even cut your toe nails! I miss those weekends when we'd all have dinner somewhere fancy. I miss the out of town vacations, the lavish Christmases, warmth of being a family - a complete one. 

When I come to visit, I will bring you your favorite Sampaguita flowers. I'm sorry I can't afford to buy the really thick lei. I know you'd appreciate what ever I could give. I will tell you once again how much I love you and that I miss you so much and then I would lay those fragrant little white flowers on your tombstone and pray to God to give you a hug for me. 

Your little girl,

Eileen